I am filled with regret cause all i feel is pain and suffering
Am filled with regret wishing it never happened in the first place
Am filled with regret wandering what happened
As it regret plays over my head over and over again
I am filled with regret as nothing is the same
Everything has changed making me filled with regret every single second
I am filled with regret wishing I could have prevented it
Leaving me with a series of past events jumbled up in my head filled with regret
Stabbed to the heart unexpected left only to have broken pieces left
Came as shocker as to say life is full of surprises
Hurt to say the least as hope turned to disappointment in a matter of seconds
What was bright now became dull as there was no more light,
Pain isn’t a shocker as it has always lived in the heart
What came as a surprise was hope which was now gone
Being careful wasn’t even thought in the slightest
Letting fate to be judge removing all the doubts and fears
The greatest fear ended up happening expecting the unexpected.
Is it possible to lose piece by piece
Not noticing it vanishing in front of your eyes,
It doesn’t seem real like its all a dream only to be a reality
No signs as it all happens in a flash in a matter of a second,
A part is lost leaving the space to be blank and hollow
The space to fill the pieces lost is irreplaceable,
No meaning life seems to take a swift turn and a toil
Ending up with no direction as it voids no meaning
Are the ways to revive it as that seems to be the bigger question
Missing pieces making it incomplete to make a perfect masterpiece.
Days pass, wind blows as my mind is left blank
As I look and stare at the clear sky, and as I hear the sound of crickets it keeps me sane
Mind is filled with so many questions, fear dwells upon the mind
Past recent events haunt and torments the mind
Looking for to find some piece of sanity, a sense of relief,sense of peace
Emotions are battled within life seems to be taking a toll on me
How long is this gonna last is the bigger question?
Leaving me with so many burning urges to let this feeling go
The feeling of emptiness,pain, not doing enough
Feelings I cant express to the outside world as it eats me alive every day of my life
Today is my blog’s 3rd year anniversary. I have so many things I have accomplished by starting this blog. I enjoy every second ever since i joined WordPress. Thank you everyone for being with me through this journey.
Enslaved as a puppet easily blinded slowly weakening you
Holding on to a force that controls your body, mind and soul,
Forces that strain you pulling you down as you give it satisfaction,instead of being in control,
Becoming its blind fool thinking you have nothing to lose, only to be losing you,
Fear controlling and taking over instead of having the courage to conquer it.
I grew in your womb for nine months,
with my bleary vision, your hazel eyes are the first thing In my searching gaze.
You instilled in me the knowledge of right and wrong,
stayed by my side since my birth,
giving unconditional love with no restraint.
Doing your best for me,
even though I may do wrong or fall from your favour,
that ceaseless love and tenderness remains pulsing from your heart.
I feel at ease, knowing i can count on you for anything,
My mother’s love, my safest place, my comfort and my rescue.